May 2008,2009

Hey guys, Leng here. i've opened up this blog today for as u can see from the title, telling you guys about the hells and heavens that i suffered from May 2008/2009. The month of May in these past 2 years has changed the way i thought about life and way i live my life. I would also like to apologize to a few of my friends in this blog about the things that i've done and the things that i did not do in these 2 months. I would also like to apologize if i just wasted like 5 minutes of your time even looking at my blog. Im gonna explain each date and what happened to me that i felt was hard to forget.

May 14 2008,

Today was my birthday. Thanks guys for all the wishes. But the thing that made me hard to forget about this day was that i received a present. 2 presents in exact. From her. Well, you don't need to ask who's her. but if u know her then u know her. She gave me a card, which she made herself-which the card was my name. The card was my name! I'd never received these type of presents before.. and i hardly receive presents at all cause its mostly just wishes. so thank you.

May 18 2008,

May 18th. As you all know. My friend Caleb. My best friend who i treat like a brother. Well, i call everyone brother, but he's different. Today was the day his dear grandmother passed away. And even though I did not know her but, it was a day that my brother lost his grandma. I would also like to apologize to you after the stupid thing that i've done in front of class at this day. Sorry. It was the last grandmother that he had left, like me at that time.

Im gonna skip to May 24th first

May 24 2008,

I recieved a call from Mandeep. I got a call from him cause at that time, he was trying to contact Justin and i was using Justin's number. He told me that Justin's mum had passed away. Shocked and don't know what to say. Called him and he sounded calm. Couldn't sleep through the night. Keep waking up, and the thoughts were buzzing in my head like an annoying bee. I knew aunty. She was a very nice woman and would talk to me whenever she was waiting for Justin during tuition. Even though im not close to her. Well, I knew her. And well, Justin is like a brother to me.

May 21 2008,

I remembered that it was Ooi's birthday. Sorry if i say the wrong facts. Today was the day that my friend Justin, lost his beloved mother. Well, i didnt know till Mandeep called me on the 24th. Plus, noone like want to inform me. I guess im the last to know everything.

May 22-29 2008,

It was Justin's mum's funeral period. Justin, Im so sorry that i did not attend your mum's funeral. I had some problems at that time and i hope u understand. Till today i cannot forgive myself for not attending your mothers funeral. Im sorry.

May __ 2008,

I didnt write the date because i forgot it already.. So this is gonna be for the whole month of may.

I've been so unfair to you this whole month. I did not consider how do you feel, but i just cared more about how do i feel. Im sorry.

Now, thats May 2008. Sorry Justin, Caleb, You.

Lets get on to this year's May.

May 8 2009,

Justin's grandfather passed away on this day. Justin told me many things about his grandfather including the one with the drips. Again, i was like the last person to know about this. I went into the school toilet during class and called him. He sounded calm. Brother, you too tough la.

Okay, my head's gonna burst now. Thinking of what happened in the month of May. So im just gonna go to the things that i really cant forget.

May 23 2009,

Celebrated my birthday with my ahma today. Her birthday was on May too.

May 31 2009.

1p.m.

Uncle Johnny came, to check how ahma was doing. Dad and Mum was in Australia and they are coming back today, but only around 11ishp.m. Ah ma did not eat for the past 2 days. Suddenly she grew thin because she was eating lesser and lesser everyday. There were even times that she only drank milk and didnt want to eat at all. It was a Sunday. I remembered Uncle Johnny bringing a doctor 2 days earlier to check on my grandmother. The doctor said that if she goes on like that. we may have to bring her to the hospital cause her lungs was having an infection. Other than that, she was perfectly fine. So lets continue..

At 1p.m. my uncle came and checked on my grandmother. she didnt really eat that day. But above all else, she looked fine.

2p.m.

Informed my parents,Uncle Robert Aunty Alice, Uncle Billy and Aunty Tomma in Australia through msn that ahma was not eating. Uncle Johnny too explained that even though ah ma was like that. They shouldnt worry and rush home.

6p.m.

Uncle Johnny came again to check on ahma. His house is near and its convienient for him to check on ahma. This time, ahma turned pale. her hands turned a bluish pale colour and it wasnt a good sign. My uncle called the other uncles and aunties which i have. 9 Uncles and 3 Aunties. To start praying for ahma.

7p.m.

Ahma was having trouble breathing. She was breathing heavily. Everyone was so worried for her. All we could do was pray for her.

7.45p.m

My uncle decided to call the ambulance.Sadly to say, The red cresent ambulance broke down halfway but we all didnt know. We waited and waited and kept praying for ahma, hoping for her condition to get better.

8.30p.m.

I've been walking in and out of ahma's room. checking how's her condition. I prayed for like maybe 10 minutes then i would go in to check on her. I was crying, I did not want ahma to leave me. I loved her so much, She was the only ahma i had because my mum's ahma passed away before i was born. I remembered around 8p.m. I asked my friend Billy and Kenny, to spare a prayer for my ahma.

Im gonna skip to 9.15 first.

9.15p.m.

I realised that ahma was not breathing heavy anymore. I realised more then that.. I realised she wasnt breathing at all. Well, my uncles and cousins said that ahma was breathing very lightly. But i doubt that.

I was sure that ahma was no more. I touched her hand, and it was cold. Very very cold.. Family still did not want to believe that ahma was no more.. I didnt want to believe that too, so i continued to pray.

Continued From 8.30

8.35p.m.

After 5 minutes, i went in to check on my ahma again. She was breathing heavier then ever. So, so worried for her. Tears running down my face when i saw ahma in so much discomfort.

8.45p.m

Im not really sure, but i think. its around this time that ahma passed away. I wasnt aware that ahma passed around this time. cause i was outside in the living room praying for her.

9.10p.m.

Ambulance didnt arive yet, So my uncle went to eng ann to ask for the doctor there. He saw the ambulance on the way. The ambulance broke down. And the man said he was gonna send another ambulance, But my uncle couldnt wait. So he went to ask for the doctor.

9.45p.m.

Only Uncle Johnny, Doctor and me was in the ahma's room. The doctor first looked at ahma. did some tests. First, He used his stesthescope to listen for ahma's heartbeat. He didnt say anything.. then, he checked for ahma's blood pressure. he looked down, and last, he pointed a light into ahma's eyes to check for the pupil movement. But nothing. He confirmed ahma's passing. My uncle then lead him outside and brought him back to his clinic. My uncle told the family and everyone started crying. There was people who haven't arrived yet. Like my parents, who were still on the way from Australia. I will never forget this day till i die. Everyone started crying. I cannot describe it in words. People who had lived through these situations only will know they way i feel.

11.30p.m.

Parents and Uncle Robert and Aunty Alice rushed from the airport as soon as they heard the news. My uncle, had a 'call' from my ahma a few hours before. My Uncle Billy too. Its too long to write in words, I will explain to you if you want me to explain it.

11.45p.m.

Family from Australia finnally reached home. Just close your eyes and picture this scene.

Your grandmother passed. everyone's crying and your parents just came from overseas.

12a.m.

The people from Fairy Park came and did everything. they took down my curtains, pictures and wrapped everything.

Well, im gonna skip the first 3 days of funeral. If you guys wanna know. see me in school then i'll explain.

Even though this blogs about May, But im gonna write about the last day of ahma's funeral.

June 3 2009,

It was ahma's last day for her funeral. this means that we're gonna put her into the final resting place.
I personally, do not wanna talk about it. You want to know. I'll send you a picture and let the picture describe.

After all that, i've learned that things can be out of your reach and just zoom pass you in the matter of seconds, or in my case, hours. My ahma was looking okay in the afternoon, but at night, she passed. We should treasure life every second. Keep your loved ones close. I still cry till today for ahma. I miss you so dearly

Thanks for spending your precious time reading this blog. Im sorry if i wasted it. Sorry for the bad english. That is May 2008/2009 till June 3 2009.