I need to release.

Blogging again? Seriously Leng?
Well, I do only blog when i really need to release my stress and have problems to pour out.
Well.. What't the problem now Leng?
It's that girl AGAIN. and AGAIN and AGAIN.
Why does this keep bothering me?

Your eyes are so beautiful I can stare at them all day long.
Your voice is so perfect, It should be on the Worlds Number 1 SoundTrack.
Everytime you call my name my heart jumps for joy.
I love your personality.
Easy to talk to, smart, funny, beautiful.
Your laugh is so nice, It can bring me up anytime.
You're the closest thing to perfection for me.
You are perfect.

FEELING DOWN

Huge dillema!
Why, oh why on this so important year feelings for you have to be so strong?
Why oh why I do not have the guts to pour my feelings?

Oh, It's that fear again.
Everyone calls it REJECTION.
Self esteem, Down the drain again!

You might know who you are,
You gave me signs saying NO.
So have my word, I'm trying my best to forget, get over this major major crush.
If you can call it a crush lah. More like a crash.
*Sighs*

Breaking

Do you memorize theatrical lines
That seem to lead them in
Play the role with a good girl heart
Hide the tangled webs within
Who was it that led you on,
and makes you want to hurt me so?
Who do you want to forget,
That forgot you long ago?

Do you still feel him
Calling in the air tonight
Do you still feel it
Seems like you've done this before

You make breaking hearts look so easy
(seems like you've done this before)
You've got breaking hearts all but down
(and you've done this, you've done this before)
You make stealing hearts look so easy
(where is the girl I adore?)
You've got breaking up all but down
(and I can't love a thief anymore)

Do you collect the souls you've lost
In the top of your dresser drawer
Count the number of tears displaced
On lonely bedroom floors
A machine where your heart once was
Slowly takes the place of you
Only hold the memories now
Of a love I thought I knew

Do you still feel him
Calling in the air tonight
Do you still feel it
Seems like you've done this before

You make breaking hearts look so easy
(seems like you've done this before)
You've got breaking hearts all but down
(and you've done this, you've done this before)
You make stealing hearts look so easy
(where is the girl I adore?)
You've got breaking up all but down
(and I can't love a thief anymore)

You make breaking hearts look so easy
You've got breaking hearts all but down
You make breaking hearts look so easy
(seems like you've done this before)
You've got breaking hearts all but down
(and you've done this, you've done this before)

The best you could hope to be is now just a bittersweet memory
And you make breaking hearts look so easy.

Its the 2nd of January .

Yeah its the 2nd of January. But im sick.. Shit larh! Im thinking i cant make it for the first day of school.. Happy Birthday Harris! Sorry couldnt make it for gbox. :(

Happy Birthday Sultan!

Happy Birthday to our dear Sultan of Selangor..
His birthday means... PUBLIC HOLIDAY!
No work and no tuition.. Heheheh
Wanna go out anyone? =D

lawl.

To tell you guys the truth. I don't get blogging.
Lawl.
Anyways, exams are over and yeah. Its so freaking boring.
What to do? What to do? what to do!?
Frequent question asked in my head..

Holidays Resolution: Use the extra time i have to exercise and come back fit.
If i succeed: FUCK U PEOPLE! :D
If i dont. : Please forgive me. :P

Angry. Then Sad.

Hey guys. Here blogging again about some stupid stuff that happened. I found out today, that the world can be cruel. To the living and the dead. It doesn't matter whether you've done good or done bad. People will do bad things to you. From today onwards, I've lost my trust to people. No not you friends, But all the people out there. Yes, You motherfuckers.

1) Who were the one's who robbed my friends that day?
PEOPLE

Fine. Things blow over. But what i found out today really pissed me off. As you all know, I've lost my Grandmother recently. 31st May. Yeah, Lets not talk about that and cut to the chase.
My Grandmother was burried. And guess what? Her grave which has quite a number of metal steel bars have all been stolen. Yes the metal door, the bars beside it. I cannot understand. The people who do this.
What the fuck is wrong with you people? Are you insane? You rob from the living. Then you rob from a dead person's grave. My Uncle's grave steel bars were all stolen too. And no, it doesn't stop there. When you look around. All the grave's bars have been stolen. I was really angry when i've heard this. What if I steal from your mother's grave you assholes? Or maybe you steal from your own mother's grave. I was angry. And now im sad.
Sad that there is people out there, who steals from the dead and get to sleep comfortably at night. Well, how do i know that? Cause if they can't sleep. They wont do it anymore. Not only my Ahma's grave was stolen of steel bars. Im sure it happens everywhere. You just can't do anything to stop this heartless people. To all the people who have experience this. I share your anger.

Not scared of robbing from the living or the dead?
PEOPLE

Now i know.

Now i know

What if feels like to be betrayed by a friend

I also know, maybe our friendship is not coming to an end

Maybe we can save this friendship

Maybe not

But what you did I can never forgive.

You were close to me

Yes you were

But you chose to backstab me

Whyever?

I hope everything that people's telling me

Is just a LIE

Or not, my relationship with you is fried

Get ready man,

Cause if I found out you backstabbed me?

You're never gonna backstab anyone again.